Oh MY! We're Having a Baby!

As silly as this might sound, the bigger my belly gets the more and more it becomes a reality that we are, in fact, having a child!  Abby kicks ALL the time now and you can even see her activity from the outside as she punches and kicks her mommy!  With that said, not even that was enough to jar me into reality.  It's hard to explain; I know that I am pregnant and thought that I had completely grasped that fact since we found out in March.  But perhaps what happens mentally when you start to have a visible belly is that you have this once clandestine baby right out in front of you (often obscuring once visible body parts or getting in the way of once passable tight spots)...and every time you bend down to get something...and when you can't find a comfortable position in bed despite hours of shifting...so it's kind of hard to ignore the fact that in T-4 months Rock and I will be parents or to put that fact on the far-future backburner of life. 

The reality of having a baby is also brought about when people ask how far along I am (...because I tell them we're expecting...I have yet to have that assuming person ask how pregnant I am, but I can't wait until someone does so that I can look at them shocked and tell them "I am not pregnant," lol) because when I answer now with 20-some weeks, I simultaneously think "WOW!  That's over halfway there!!" 

Rock asked me yesterday if I felt like a mommy yet and while I love Abby with all my being and cannot wait to meet her, I can't say honestly that I feel mommy-ish yet.  I don't feel right claiming that, since I have no outward responsibility for our baby yet.  Sure I've done "work" with growing Abby thus far and going through the morning sickness, back and headaches and my ever-growing bump; but to say that I feel like a mommy still just doesn't feel right.  I feel that maybe babies grow for 9 months not only for their benefit but so that mom can mentally prepare, too.  Kind of in keeping with the old saying, "Nothing worth having comes free!" 

Anyway, those are just my ramblings from this past week.  Look out after this weekend for Week 22 shots.  I will be in Texas visiting family, so hopefully I remember to take some pictures and if not, I will take and post pictures as soon as I get home!  Enjoy your week!

This is just a bonus picture from the "What to Expect When You're Expecting" website (http://www.whattoexpect.com/) of what little Miss Abigail Stevens looks like this week.  Except picture her little booty butt cheeks facing inward and her legs outward because that's definitely the way all her kicks are directed!